It’s been two months since I blogged a single word. Honestly, I needed the break. The fall semester closed with a lot of small tasks to complete — and several big ones (finals, anyone?). When the three weeks of holiday came around, I spent a lot of time relaxing. And then the New Year kicked in and I was fighting off an illness that took me two weeks to overcome.
As the year began, I told people, “2012 — 1. Me — 0.” My stress levels were high: I had a new class to prep for and then the dreaded internship. It wasn’t dreaded because I’m terrified of teaching. It was dreaded because I didn’t want to do it. The petulant child in me wanted to scream and cry and stomp my feet.
“But, I’ve been a teacher for almost five yeeeeeeaaaarrrrrsssss,” the tantrum began. “Whhhhhyyyyyy do I have to do this? I’ve taught high school, dual-enrollment, traditional college students, non-traditional students. Students who were labeled ‘Basic’ and those who were labeled ready for college. Whhhhyyyyy?”
And then there was the rational part of my brain that just said, “Suck it up. This is one hurdle. It’s a sucky (yes, I used that word) hurdle, but it’s not one that is so daunting you can’t do it.”
Of course, the rational side of my brain won out, and when people would make this face when I told them I had to do an internship (and they knew I was already teaching), I would calmly tell them: “It’s just a hoop to jump through. It’ll be fine.”
And it has been fine.
I’m lucky enough to have a cooperating teacher who is open to my ideas and who embraces what I think about writing — that it encompasses so much more than an essay. The first project for the junior students I have is a pop culture fact-finding mission. And they aren’t writing an essay. They’re mastering information literacy and writing paragraphs. In fact, before that, she let me teach them a handy, dandy method for paragraphs that I stole from the wonderful Dr. Bob Evans.
What I’ve seen from this class is a lack of stress about “writing assignments” — and that’s what it’s all about in the end. In the last year of my teaching, especially in the last year with Dr. Woodworth, I’ve challenged my definition of writing and assignments and even how to approach writing. From these experiences, I’ve learned to start small, to start manageable, and to start as if my students know nothing (which is sadly the state most of them are in).
I’m seeing the application of all of the theories and thinking I’ve done through this blog. And it’s done me some good.